Saturday, May 26, 2007 5:01 PM
whatever la
12.01 am
today we had interviews! and i got some pretty bad reviews. i think i just going to heck and whack people already la. sometimes dun need to be so politically correct la.
morning went to clean up band room, actually quite fun la, throwing away a lot a lot of stuff. but i bet it'll be messed up like 1 week later la. actually if it lasts that long its quite zai already loh. we cleaned the salt centre band room also, and immediately after that jian ming and ernest came in and just heck care and anyhow mess up the place again. RARAHH.
but the main point was today's interview. i don't know. i think i don't like a lot of j2s after the interview. ok. maybe some only. and i'm going to let rip ahahahaha.
basically its ok, i don't really care about the interview cause i know what matters most is election day and i know i should get more popularity votes that the others so unless they tweak the results i think i should get it.
but the thing i don't like most was the part where they personal attack me. i dunno, some exco member was telling me that i, as a exco wannabe, shouldn't goof around during band prac and talk so much or play phone games and all that crap, that i should be a role model and stuff. i don't know if its a personal attack or not, but i think it is and i feel really really irritated. if there's one thing i don't like its having personal attacks. really.
and worse was that the clarinets in front in the first row was like, even more dulan than me la, FIRST ROW right in front of derence leng in full view of the whole band and they do guailan stuff like do some mini kallang wave thingy and act spastic and hold out their clarinets and talk even more than me and stuff like that. ALL of them clarinet j2s are in the exco btw. talk about being a role model huh.
so i told them that and i really just attituded them, like i attitude mrs ke in sec 4. in the end i got so fed up i told them that if they thought i was capable to be the qm then vote for me, but if not then its they're perogative to vote for someone else no?
maybe that's another thing i don't like, the fact that people who do equally bad stuff scolding me about my flaws. like kkh telling sheng heng not to mug. or mrs ke telling me to improve my english. or my dad telling me to get a life. or in this case the exco telling me to behave in band prac. i mean, i'm perfectly fine with them guailaning around during band prac, i mean, i even encourage it even hello. but if you want to correct my mistakes than you should jolly well look at yourself first and see if you're doing likewise right? talk about the pot calling the kettle black.
and i think seewah has a really attitude face. she gives me the i-dare-you-to-slap-my-face-lets-see-what-kiameng-does-to-you kind of face lots of times during the interview.
jessalynn has really weird mood swings. one moment she's so stern and strict and stuff, reprimanding us over the smallest details and stuff like that, but when i turn away for a moment, then turn back and crap with her she laughs along with me. i don't know. she's different from the jessalynn i knew 6 months ago. is it our fault, that we guai lan her so much that she's become like that or what.
jun wei now is really really funny la. much much more guailan than me! i like! hahahah he damn funny everytime gimme the guailan faces during band prac. den i also guai lan back him and we guai lan together hahahahaha. don't know what's wrong with him what happened to him but i like!
sometimes i think about it when band prac gets really boring and i wonder if i'm the cause of all troubles, that if i become mr nice guy than everything will be alright, but i realise i can't be mr nice guy cause i'm not mr nice guy. i just don't like to fake. maybe that's why i dao the seniors so much nowadays. cause i don't know what to do when they're around. whether to put on my Best Behavior or to be natural. cause if i fake then i'd feel really useless, faking only to get my desired post. but if i be natural i know they'll use it to personal attack me again. i'm like so damn confused la. i want to win, being my ownself and winning fair and square, but i know in life nothing is fair, that if i win in terms of votes i still might not get to become the qm.
i think they have a terrible impression of me now cause i gave them the heck care attitude and such, and i think they prolly think that i won't do a good job.
prolly the only good point was that i impressed myself when meng hon shot me this traditional wacky qm question, whether i'd want to be a bra or a panty if given a choice, and relate it to the qm position. and then i told them that i'd be both, cause i'd be protecting the band's vital assets. heh i think its quite a zai answer cause i normally can't do these kind of crappy talk.
i prolly won't get the qm position now unless they don't tweak the votes, but i learnt lots of stuff through this experience,
> that the j2s aren't such good band members in terms of role models and stuff
> that i don't like personal attacks
> that i don't like to fake my attitude and be a enthu kia for a few weeks
> that i want to be myself all the time
i still think flutes ROCK.
j1s EVEN BETTER RAHHHH! ( + 1 conductor )
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