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Wednesday, June 13, 2007 2:46 PM
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9.46pm

ELECTIONS TOMORROW.

one of the things i hate most is making speeches.
i hate making speeches.
i stutter when i have to make speeches.
catch me in action stuttering tmr.

and tmr i have to make one
worthy enough to convince ppl that i'm worthy to be the band's qm
worthy enough to let ppl put the band funds in my hands
worthy enough to tell ppl that i'll spend the money wisely

which i might not hehehehe.
the band needs more new and even better flutes
not really actually.
but the more the merrier.

aiyah mainly i have to convince the j2s.
cause i really attitude them during the interview
cause i had a terrible impression of them for that short period of time
so now i don't think they like me a lot.
and like yi huang said
they might tweak the results if they don't like me.

anyway.
here's a sneak preview of my speech:

which is basically,
nothing.

i really think i'm going to impromptu (sp?)
but i think its really self-destructing
but i don't really care.
making speeches suck.

what if i'm too soft?
what if i break out in sudden laughter?
what if i say something stupid?
what if the seniors shoot me down later?
what if i stutter too badly?
what if my mind turns blank?
what if there's vegetables stuck on my teeth?
what if?

i have a slow brain.
i think slowly.
if the use something i said earlier to suan me or sth
i'm screwed
my retort will be made and ready in like
5 minutes.

SERIOUSLY!

but i have a serious dearth of confidence when making speeches
i don't know why.
what's wrong with being un-confident anyway?
i should be confident about being not confident.

oh shit shit shit shit shit.
this is really dumb.
what am i talking about?

oh myyyy.
what if i say something like that tmr?

or maybe i shouldn't say anything tmr.
after all,
saying less is more.

but what if ppl forget that i'm running.
since i didn't make a speech or sth.

THIS SUCKS BIG TIME.
I AM GETTING ANXIOUS.
OVER 5 MINUTES OF MADNESS.

its a feeling like i've never felt before.
not even before EOYs last year
when i went into the exam room without studying at all.

BOOHOO.
I FROWN LIKE THIS >:(

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