Friday, June 27, 2008 2:45 PM
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9.45pm
oh god sucks like shit la
today's maths was so horrible!
esp since i was banking on maths to save my sorry ass.
ahhh really omg omg wtf.
lucky there was frisbee after blocks
just throw about a bit and play a short match
and sort of relieve my anger
and THEN THERE'S BAND (L) DINNER
sort of la the same 10 or so ppl loh.
but still
after all those are over
maths still comes back to haunt me.
maths wtf.
WTF.
oh no the first page was really wtf.
and second question omg omg omg.
WALAO I FORGOT CAN USE GC TO DO INEQUALITIES.
and then i manually do out
and got some cubic equation
like omgshit.
wth la
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and second page wasn't much better either
oh well oh well.
i did manage to write a lot of shit
but still.
aye i don't think it works anymore
quality over quantity again.
oh well and stats was to be my saving grace
omg omg it was okay the sampling was
i dunno i'm like genius
i studied 5 mins of stats
and i can do! yay happy
okay maybe its a lot of common sense
but still at that stage
i'm easily excitable.
mmm and binomial poisson was okayyy
mm then oh probability!
hahaha DIE.
and question 14.
DIE.
how i know what's mean and variance for normal!
the formula booklet only got for binomial and poisson la.
asdk;asld.
i calculated.
i didn't get final ans for 48 marks worth of question.
means.
well. big fat U again.
aye its so demoralising.
i think this paper's the most pwnage la.
daryl says its cause i mugged hardest for maths
then still can't do.
dunno la.
i think now chem and physics will probably get higher than maths.
ah its so like deja vu
last blocks i mugged for chem and chem only
and chem came out a killer
this time i did most for maths
and the maths paper was so... guailan.
the questions don't relate to the orange book at all!
so doing like a hundred plus pages of maths wasn't enough i guess
argh sucks la.
i don't know i thought maths was really really bad.
i felt so horrible inside while doing maths
and what made it worse was that the stupid invigilator
walao she damn motherf she come collect my paper that time
she went like
aye you finish very early right?
i see you staring at the wall very long liao.
you canoeist is it
cause now they got the what ah, season.
never study ah
so poor thing...
like really wtf la.
i was like no, no i'm not a canoeist la
and yes i did study really!
but uhh inside i dunno.
i guess she shouldn't have done that.
worse still when she reached bennybanana.
AIYOH! are you sure that's all?
(cause i think he used v few pieces of paper)
aiyoh so poor thing...
she go poor thing here poor thing there
and just ridicule people here and there
like telling keli to go back to nursery
cause he didn't know how to tie a knot
and slapping dion's hand for spamming her name
on every single sheet of paper
and then double- and triple- checking
that every page had her name.
i don't know i thought that was rather mean of her
maybe sean will grow up to be a teacher like that hurr.
aye maths was bad.
now what's left to save me
is chem and physics paper 1 and 2 loh.
aiyah it sucks so bad la.
its just this horrible feeling
when you put all your eggs in one basket.
(okay almost all)
and then DIE.
flattened.
like. i dunno.
and now, as always
i have to pick myself up, as always
sigh, and then, as always
i do what i have to do.
grin and bear it,
and move on with life.
there's nothing else i can do really.
blocks are so unpredictable.
whenever you think
they're going to throw everything they've got at you
hence don't study
they give you a relatively easy paper
and vice versa i can't be bothered to elaborate.
i think we all know.
in that sense
its hard to study la
cause i dunno i'm super far behind
everytime i catch up in one subject i fall behind in another
yea so have to accurately predict which subject to mug for.
if not.. uhh.. die loh.
when you realise the time you spent mugging
without end results
could be done doing more useful stuff
like helping retarded kids lead better lives
like helping the earthquake victims in china
like travelling around the world maybe.
like learning how to fly a plane maybe.
like going to africa to see majestic lions.
doing things that help make change.
(okay not the lions bit but i really want to see african lions!)
everytime i think about these
and then i wonder
what the hell i'm doing in school.
it's just so meaningless.
and its so hard to study effectively la.
at least like in frisbee if i throw the damn disc 1000 times
i know that my forehand's going to get more stable
with band i'm sure if i tune for 20 hours i'll get my note in tune.
but studying's so much different la
everytime i study i don't see any change.
at all.
if anything it just seems to get worse.
its so demoralising.
i think people who know me for a long long time
(okay actually even a short time would suffice)
would know how much i hate mugging
and it has taken a herculean effort on my part
to actually do like revision for blocks.
its like. high inertia.
a lot of effort is needed to push a bit.
and no its not momentum
no matter how much i study
its still going to take me this much effort to mug that little bit.
but its like a futile attempt la.
when there's so much input
and so little (or none at all) outcome
it just makes sense to stop doing it altogether doesn't it.
everytime i feel like giving up
i just remind myself that its just 144 more days.
and then no more studying for a long long time.
that's how much i hate studying really.
like ken yeow said
no matter how hard it is, it will come to an end.
but then again.
144 days is forever.
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