booked out late ytd. 1800 hours. then went out with the band ppl to amk fish and co for dinner. dunno why either. i was like crazy tired.
today morning went to airport just dunno la. walk about plug in my ipod watch airplanes take off and de-stress loh. ns very stressful. must rush here and there everytime.
but walao today damn suay la they cleaning the runway so T3 got no planes taking off. then the T2 one normally nobody but today got this family. then the kids damn noisy even with my ipod on still can hear then really damn turned off so i just walk around loh. and i made up my mind liao. don't care, next time, die die also must work in airport. haha airport is really like my favourite place on earth la. even if its at the DFS as a cashier.
then went down to wcp for national youth trials. played okay i guess but then again we played the girls so aiyah whatever la. don't think i'll make the team. surprisingly i'm just a little little wee bit disappointed. i guess for quite a number of reasons la.
i mean, can't help it la. given my current circumstances, i've alrdy tried my best, cannot make it then suck thumb loh. and really must admit, i'm not that good yet.
and its really just whatever you call it la. bad luck or what. missed last sat's trial cause of field camp which ended on thursday so today go there still damn damn shagged. and the first thing they made us do was ONE suicide. using the 8 cones of the field. halfway through i just died la. haha but lucky got dayong can take the wooden spoon.
aiyah like alex said, its not the end of the world when i don't make the team la. for everything there's always the good and the bad side.
the bad side's that i won't be playing regular top level frisbee la. and whatever shit that goes with it.
the good things are that dunno ns and frisbee might not be a good mix. its like i only got 2 days free. after screwing around in tekong for 5 days, running up and down hills rushing here there everywhere, running myself to the ground might not be the best option. today after training and dinner with the frisbee ppl junjie asked me go out with some band ppl go ps to err eat and lag around la but i was really quite tired. so i didn't go for once. just went home loh.
more imptly, without frisbee i'll have more time on my hands to do my own stuff to go out with my friends to go out with my parents to go to my ah ma house.
aiyah i also don't know why i'm putting all these down also la just to fill up the space la probably.
tmr book in. damn sian. i'm really damn sian of ns alrdy. i removed one of my things from my bucket list. i don't wanna go ocs anymore. unless its like the air wing. i've decided to just do some slack thing and just get lost. if i could i'd down pes. i don't know la really. like i told meijun. i don't know whether to chiong ns or to just slack my time away. i really want to slack my time away. but then again, i guess my parents would be prouder of me if i did well in ns. and since my life's quite screwed up there's not much stuff for my parents to be proud of me of. since i probably have a higher chance of doing better in ns than in school dunno maybe i should just go for it. i don't know i don't know i don't know. i guess i'd just take things as it comes.
aiyah on another random note, i can't believe this really really noob video made 102 ppl sign up for frisbee.
ahhhh the good old days when my white boots were still working when i had my long hair so much stuff changed la. its not even one month ago. of all the things there the only thing that remains unchanged is my ares shirt.
this is a crappy ranty post. i'm gonna go bathe. because cider is the elixir of life